Regrets?

I'm confused... did I do or say something wrong? Or were you just tired...

I know you were tired - what am I talking about - who am I kidding. I just hope you don't regret the other two nights and what was said/done...

Thanks for coming out for the drinks - you're doing a FANTASTIC job in your new role... thank you for sharing everything with me...

I hope there are no regrets

Renewing Friendships and Losing Weight

Start with the weight... been in the gym and really watching my food intake the past 2 weeks - PAYOFF! Down 3 pounds ... that's 3 of the 15 -20 that I want/need to lose... the bloodpressure came down also... still need to see a bigger drop in the bottom number of the BP, but good start...

Now the friendship piece - went to lunch on Thursday with my friend - WOW! She showed up and my jaw hit the floor... what a beauty! Would have loved to have taken the rest of the day off with her, but it could not be...

She's taking more time off later in the month so I'll try to play hookey one afternoon and spend time if she wants - Letting her make the choices. So far it's been fine by me and the results have been awesome.

Another Chance to Reconnect

What a great night reconnecting... it's been so long since we've been able to do that and I so wish that we were able to get together more often... we both know that's not always possible though and we'll just keep making the best of every chance we can ...

Friends like you are a once in a lifetime blessing and I want that friendship to be there for a long time yet to come...

Past/Present/Special

Friday was great... we hadn't been able to connect that way in years... hopefully we don't pull each other in too far again and don't push each other away like we did before...

There's gotta be a happy median for what we have... maybe this time...

No matter what, you're special to me (like it or not) and hopefully you don't regret what happened (past or present).

J

Damn - You Can Talk!!

Went to lunch with a friend today... one I used to work with pretty closely... damn can the girl talk!

Usual spot, usual conversation... I could typically listen to her for a long, long time... I still find myself getting lost in her words and just staring at her... she's so damn pretty to boot!

Normally that might turn people off (dominating a conversation) but with her, I love to hear about how she's grown into her latest role as a manager - something that should have happened a long time ago but didn't because of friction and politics...

Since she and I were close when I worked there, she never got a fair shake until after I bailed on the place... it hurt me to leave the company (financially and otherwise) but for me it was the right thing to do because I was in a dead end department... I didn't leave for her - I did it for me to go to what I thought at the time was a better opportunity... her success is hers and hers only and I'm very proud of her...

Can't wait to go out for drinks one of these nights with her and just listen some more...

Out of the Blue

So my best friend in NJ gave me a call tonight - out of the blue as he typically does... I'll tell you, I can't wait to go back to see him and the other "boyz"... I love it out here in Colorado, but damn - if I could move him and another buddy of mine out here, it would be heaven...

Every time we get on the phone, it's a laugh-fest... I can always count on him to make me feel good when I'm down and feel even better when I'm feeling good!!!

Known him for over 30 years now... brothers for sure...

Why Do You Do This??

Why?

Why show up to the game so drunk that you can't play?
Why say the things you did when I tried to reach out to you to help?

I know that it was the booze talking, but it hurt... it stung...

You're beautiful, I care and I love you... I'll try again next week.

Why Do People...

have to insist on rubbing shit in your face when you're down?

Why can't you just sit back, shut up and listen every now and then without turning the subject back to yourself?

In my situation do you really give a rat's ass if you were able to go to the game on Thursday night? Hell - I haven't bought myself a beer in over a month! Don't get me wrong, I want you to be happy, but it seems that whenever I need to talk and vent, the subject always switches back to you...

And then YOU get pissed at me when I try to tell you that I called someone that did listen??

I know - we're both going through a tough time again right now. It's harder since we can't see each other and the phone calls just don't cut it anymore... we both need a hug (from each other) and we both need to step back and remember why we're friends.

I do love you ... never forget that...

Friendship and Loyalty

A boss at one of my old companies couldn't understand a friendship I had with someone there. Didn't understand why/how we could lean on each other in the toughest of times and hung out together.

He just didn't get it until one day about 3 years ago when I got a call from a friend in NJ. Our buddy Bill's dad passed away and Andy called me to ask if I still lived in NJ if I would make the drive to North Carolina for the funeral. My first question for Andy was what time he wanted to pick me up at my parents house. As we talked, I booked a flight for the next day to fly to NJ and the plan was to take a nap after I got to my parent's house and Andy to pick me up so we could drive together to NC for the service. For me it would be about 5000 miles in 2.5 days...

I walked into his office the next day, told him I was leaving for the airport at noon and would be back in a couple days. He asked what was going on and I told him. Told my other friend at work too because from all the stories she heard, she felt like she knew Bill and Andy as well.

Me, Bill and Andy are like brothers. I've known Andy since kindergarden and Bill since 7th grade. 30+ years... to me it was a no-brainer that I would do this - for Bill, for Andy, for Bill's mom and sister and for me as well. You don't grow up with someone like that and not get attached to the family, so it was natural.

While I was in NC, something blew up at work with my other friend and when I got back, I went off on someone because of it.

A few days later, my boss pulled me aside and proceded to tell me that he "finally understood what value I place in friendships..."

Unfortunately, all I could think to myself is "DUH! That's what it's all about..."

It's a shame that some people just don't understand what friendship is... being there...